And Keeps Happening LOL
So life has been throwing multiple curve balls and I happen to be a terrible catcher! Many of you have probably noticed I take more and more breaks of late. It happens and I know you understand. I thank you dearly for that! Seriously, the amount of support and strength I draw from each of you is the best pick-me-up a gal could ask for! Every message, comment, email and care package is a simple reminder of why I miss it all so much when I am unable to be active. I care not what anyone else says, the book community is the best community!
So this is not one of those “I am sorry I cannot keep up” posts (although we know I am and don’t bother telling me not to be, it is who I am 😉 ). This is a brief update and play on what put the “V” in BVT.
Many of you are aware that I made the decision to wean off of my current seizure meds (with medical advice of course). I was on a rather hefty dose and found that my tremors had returned and the brain fog was overwhelming. I mean when you are mid sentence and have to stop and ask yourself what you were saying or cannot remember something that happened 5 minutes ago.. something has to give. Since symptoms were returning and an increase is not advisable, I decided to try life without my little morning, evening and afternoon pill. Considering that I receive a new pill nearly every time I visit a specialist, I am sure there will be no shortage of meds to experiment with. But for now, I am tired of feeling groggy and over medicated. I also evicted the Valium from my med cabinet.
So as it stands I am trying to adjust to tremors and some symptoms in my hands and feet that are causing pain while living with vertigo. What can I say? I am an attention whore. Go big or go home haha. Totally kidding. I honestly hate it when people notice me. Yes, I know, I blog. But I like this behind the screen outlet. It is much easier than life on this side at times. I am still learning to accept my new body and the weird but sometimes entertaining things it seems to do. I am also learning my walker is a better friend than the floor and life goes on even if you look like some shoved a quarter up your arse while trying to meander through a bike shop (which was certainly not a purchase for myself, but now I know where to go for a snazzy helmet should the need arrive!).
But maybe the most important part of this post that I have yet to mention is how happy I am. Truly. That is typed with no underlying sarcasm. During the last two years I have tackled an entire line of challenges I never imagined and I am winning. Ok.. physically I need some work. But here is what the last two years have handed me:
- The ability to recognize that I have the world’s best support group, period
- My nonhusband would follow me to the end of the Earth and back and love me at my worst
- My kids are full of compassion and strength that they will always use to better our family
- My employers are the finest.. seriously they have went above and beyond
- I am stronger than I ever knew and comfortable saying that now
Long story short, my time online will fluctuate and I may not always be as solid of a presence as I would like, but it is all okay. Know that I am ok. Life is good and I have so much more to be thankful for than I will ever have to complain about.
“I have found that if you love life, life will love you back.”
– Arthur Rubinstein
You are all the best! Much Love to You All!