Lost Boy by Brent W. Jeffs


Lost Boy
By Brent W. Jeffs, Maia Szalavitz
Publisher: Broadway
ISBN13: 9780767931779
Pages: 241
Genre: Nonfiction/Autobiography


In the polygamous Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (FLDS), girls can become valuable property as plural wives, but boys are expendable, even a liability. In this powerful and heartbreaking account, former FLDS member Brent Jeffs reveals both the terror and the love he experienced growing up on his prophet’s compound—and the harsh exile existence that so many boys face once they have been expelled by the sect.

Brent Jeffs is the nephew of Warren Jeffs, the imprisoned leader of the FLDS. The son of a prominent family in the church, Brent could have grown up to have multiple wives of his own and significant power in the 10,000-strong community. But he knew that behind the group’s pious public image—women in chaste dresses carrying babies on their hips—lay a much darker reality. So he walked away, and was the first to file a sexual-abuse lawsuit against his uncle. Now Brent shares his courageous story and that of many other young men who have become “lost boys” when they leave the FLDS, either by choice or by expulsion.

Brent experienced firsthand the absolute power that church leaders wield—the kind of power that corrupts and perverts those who will do anything to maintain it. Once young men no longer belong to the church, they are cast out into a world for which they are utterly unprepared. More often than not, they succumb to the temptations of alcohol and other drugs.

Tragically, Brent lost two of his brothers in this struggle, one to suicide, the other to overdose. In this book he shows that lost boys can triumph and that abuse and trauma can be overcome, and he hopes that readers will be inspired to help former FLDS members find their way in the world.


This is my first review of a nonfiction title. I am attempting to provide you with nothing more than a few thoughts and my experience during my time with this book. Please be warned that this book does include sensitive material such as sexual abuse.

Until recently, it was a very rare occasion that any autobiography or memoir would capture my attention, let alone make an appearance on the blog. But I am a mood reader, and my mood has been changing. I find myself desiring to know more. Often my chosen topics are those that many might not understand. Although I do know that you are out there. It just doesn’t always go over as well to discuss darker subjects during a lunch date or at your kid’s ball practice.

I openly admit to harboring a strong fascination with cults and religious based followings of unhealthy nature. FLDS and polygamy have been a subject of intrigue for many years, largely due in part to my continuing interest in the human psych. The unyielding followers and devotion found within FLDS arguably and easily fall within the classifications and realm of cult behavior.  Also as a woman and mother, I find myself personally challenging to the concept of polygamy with many unanswered “why’s” and “how’s”. So after a recent documentary that shared a portion of Brent’s story and a look at the FLDS leader and so-called “Prophet” Warren Jeffs, picking this book up made complete sense. I feel no need to provide a recap, as the synopsis is sufficient and thorough.

I do want to specify at this point that I am not comparing FLDS (The Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints) to LDS who have since disowned many of the practices that are still found within FLDS, such as polygamy. I understand that there is a difference and do not pretend to be an expert in either, nor is this review an attempt to pass judgement on anyone’s religion. With that said, here are my thoughts on the book itself:

Lost Boy is an autobiography of one young man’s life inside and outside of FLDS. It lifts the veil, revealing insight into a world that is hard to grasp and understand. It is a story of manipulation, fear, abuse, loss and survival. It is not an easy read at the best of times, but it is a worthy read.

I found myself in deep appreciation of how much history and back story is actually contained within this book. It was not what I expected, but a welcomed surprise. We are presented with more than a sad and harrowing tale. We are given the working knowledge to understand why our author’s life was so hard and how it came to be for him and so many others. Instead of simply explaining that there was abuse and mistreatment, he shows the reader how it was all possible. We are provided a glimpse into the life of FLDS members that enables us to piece together the true manipulation that is occurring and how such a following began. We learn how fear and religion have been twisted and used against those who were so devoted. We learn how one man, Warren Jeffs, still manages a tenacious and detrimental hold on so many lives even now from prison.

The are many triggers in this book, as Brent makes a conscious effort to be open and forthright. As I mentioned, this not a gentle read. It is every bit candid as it is personal. A childhood of abuse is brought forth, but not without also honestly mentioning the times that there was still happiness. He acknowledges that amidst the chaos there was love and a sense of belonging. There is a simple and raw honesty that enables the reader to not only see but understand. My heart mourned as he described how difficult it was to separate from something so harmful because he knew nothing else. He was so integrated that the prospect of life outside the Church had become terrifying and isolating. He bravely exposes his own harsh reality and struggles that include drug use and bad decisions. There is no saving face. Simply what was and is. This is a story of real life within the FLDS and the ramifications.

I admire Brent’s decision to not only share his personal experience, but the reality of what it was/is to be raised FLDS. The choice to expose and address the years of brainwashing and abuse could not have come easily nor without cost. Lost Boy challenges us to look beyond our own comfort and see from the other side of the curtain. I recommend this to anyone who desires to learn and gain more knowledge of cults within a religious settings and the effects of them on youth, families and the society that those who manage to escape must reenter.

*I had a lot of issues with formatting and corrections while writing this and have honestly given up. So I apologize if it is a bit of a mess.

Purchase Links:

Amazon US  Amazon UK  Book Depository

Connect With Me: Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr and Instagram

Buy Me a Coffee at ko-fi.com

“How wild it was, to let it be.”


Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail
Author: Cheryl Strayed
Publisher: Knopf
ISBN: 9780307592736
Pages: 315
Genre: Autobiography/Memoir
⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐

Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail can be found here on Amazon.


Four years after the death of her mother, 22-year-old Cheryl Strayed has lost everything. Divorced and her family split in different directions, she finds herself alone, having made one bad choice after another. That is when Cheryl makes the spontaneous decision that will change her life. She is going to hike the Pacific Crest Trail alone, without any real training.


I mentioned previously that memoirs and autobiographies are not my normal forte when it comes to reading. But every now and again, something will lunge out. Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail  was a perfect example of this. Obviously, I mean you are reading my review.

My initial impression?

Seriously! 22-year-old train-wreck.. sorry but she was, and to be fair she openly embraces that fact, and she is just going to hike the PCT alone with no experience. I wanted to scream, “Girl, you ’bout to get ate by a bear!”.. or worse. Who does something like that? No sane person.

If you are not familiar with the Pacific Crest Trail, you can check the site out for all of the lovely details here. This trail is no “walk in the park”. It spans from Mexico to Canada. Yes, you read that correctly, I said Mexico to Canada. And this fool thinks she is just going to throw a pack on and have a go!?! Again..


Now that we have established that our main protagonist is a bit off, let’s look at what we really get with this book. Characters, well duh. She is hiking alone. There are a few hikers that she encounters along the way, and maybe one or two stay with you, but Cheryl is the sole focus of this story. It is her story. She does provide beautifully inserted glimpses into her past and final moments with her mother. I warn you, the first few chapters made my eyes water. I kept looking around to make sure no one was present for the waterworks show.


This book was inspiring. Of course it was! She hiked the PCT alone. If you cannot find some form of inspiration or draw encouragement from that, then you seriously need to reassess things. We are talking about a 22-year-old young female who has hit the bottom and pulls herself up and decides to do something incredible. Ignorant and insane maybe, but amazing! And I say the latter with all due respect, because I have mad respect for this woman. I just have to be honest and admit this was risky at least. I mean bears..Deliverance.. need I say more? 5 ⭐ s for inspiration and courage. Cheryl Strayed has the biggest set of cojones!! I mean they must be huge!

Here is what I did not expect. THE WRITING. Sweet mother of macaroni and cheese, this woman can write! And she can do it well. This reads as a novel written by someone who has been doing it for years. She writes in such a descriptive and picturesque manner, that it almost begins to feel like you are following her along the trail. I mean, I literally paused at times to take a breath. It seems unfathomable that she was able to bring so much life to her own story in such an unbiased perspective.

Alive, invigorating, beautiful, heart wrenching, and insane. I would easily apply any of these words to an accurate description of how Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail read and felt. Drenched with emotion. By the end of this book I wanted to hug the author, cry with her and high-five her! I felt so connected after having shared her lowest and highest moments.


So here is my real review: Read This! Read it, then share it and buy copies for friends and family to read. This one is a gifter. I have nothing negative to say. I am in love with this book.

⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐

“I knew that if I allowed fear to overtake me, my journey was doomed. Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me.”
Cheryl Strayed, Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail